Two Nights Out

And still my love life is fucked. However this time it was my own flaming fault maybe i should have just gone upstairs with him and let him get exactly what he wanted but no i had to stay down stairs and sleep on his front room floor.Though i did suprise myself by making the first move after complaining for most of the night cos i normally like the guy to make the first move traditional much. i gave him a hug cos he made me a cuppa tea which i always drink when i get drunk then i gave him a kiss and all he said was that was unexpected instead of what i wanted which was either a proper return kiss or a cute comment ahhh well a girl can only wish.It also turns out that he still has feelings for this other girl so basically i feel that he was with me for a) out of pity, b) i was only girl (i think) out of our group that he hadnt been with, c) he just wanted to get laid, d) i was the rebound or there may be the rather scary reason that i dont really want to admit that he actually liked me as a person and thought we could work but im going for the former seeing as the balance of probabilites (naice bit of legal language for you guys) is leaning on that side. He lent me his hoodie as i was freezing ( i think he needs to get the heating engineer out cos that central heating twas shit) which was naice of him and all but when i went to give it back to him as there was no possible way i could have left with it on anyway him being the lazy arse that he is was still in bed so i left it along with his indanna jones hat on the chair in his parentals room i went see ya later love expecting nothing more than an acknowleging shrug of the shoulders but no a stunted conversation ensued about how it was naice for me to come and he'll see me when he comes back then with that i took my leave he also didnt reply to my thankyou text ( my mummy taught me manners and people should realise that they dont cost anything) so i think hes just ignoring me. then there is the other bloke who im guessing will be on top form tonite with the fliriting and everything with it being his birthday but after the last two days in my life i dont think i can deal with that but am i countering this by not going out tonight not to see him no im going because i have his card and i want to give it to him personnally to see his face and because my liver needs alot of coke. Are you good at math?Can you substitute my X without asking Y please?
Much love
Stephanie
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