A message from the past with echoes from the future.

That is all she wanted you to do seriously. But dont worry about it poppet you cant have it all.
I mean with her blue nails brown eyeliner and fucked up eyes shes not the greatest looking whore in the world but thats how you made her feel like a dirty little whore that you could fuck over with someone that she trusted. So bitch shes now a stronger woman without her and shes gonna watch from the bench you sidelined her too and watch you do it all over again. And she thinks you know what have fun with that.

Much love
Stephaniejade
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Am i detecting a slight bit of compasion and longing?

First of the bat is the mention of the one the only Mr Liam Walsh. (there you go sugar) as its Hammond-FUCKING-Northman.


Right so the first time we talk in ages and one of the things you want to know is how my love life is well love that's a bit of a curve ball.
Then y'all really nice and polite talking about how your quite upset (lol didn't think that word was in your vocab guide) that you wouldn't be able to see me during your quick weekend shame that really.
If you think that's gonna endear you to me then sugar you have another thing coming.
Cos i think that I'm finally over what ever the fuck we had way back in what seems like another life. So just go back to being who you was before an annoying slightly cute prat where compassion and longing aren't in your repertoire.KThnx


Also can i just say Liam is GAY!! Were are not going out you thick skulled nincompoop just cos were close doesn't mean we are together and just for the record I'M NOT GOING OUT WITH LUKE either. Arghhh its like come on really neither of those relationships would work cos no matter what i did i couldn't swing Liam back towards my side of the fence and Luke is just too much like someone else so merrr.

As Always
Much Love
StephanieJade
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Hell Would Have To Freeze More Than Twice Before I Will Let You Go.

You are my kryptonite.

This is gonna get ugly and someones heart is gonna be smashed.

We cant go on with this on the back burner.

We have to be honest with each other do we do this every time because its safe and we feel that safe is the only option we have or some fucked up extraneous variable that keeps bringing us back together like Elvis to a peanut butter and banana sarnie.

The thing is i really don't want to let you go cos i think if i do I'll lose the best thing that I'll probably ever have.

I mean to find out who you really are you have to take a deep look inside and you may not like what you find and to be honest i think this shit will end up on Jeremy kyle.

This is some crazy shit i mean we are almost grown ups now and concerning this we're acting like a pair of infatuated tweens.

Plus then theres the fact that half the time I'm a bitch to you and you don't love me more when I'm cold and heartless.

I really don't know what to do with you i really don't cos its like i must be insane for this to be fucking with my head i mean what kind of sane person does this shit come on its getting to be way to funny and surreal for this to be part of a foreseeable reality.

So maybe i just have to laugh this all off and leave it to go its own way or attempt to go all five rounds with this and let it tear me apart and everything I'm attempting to work for.

Don't take it personally I'm just venting in an overtired manner.

As Always

Much Love

StephanieJade

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