Complex much?

I have a warrrior complex.
Simple really.
Say to me that your a soldier or descended from vikings or romans or even if you say that im from sweden or denmark, i will have to say wait a moment while i take of all my clothes.
But do you fit this bill? NO.
Your a dutty wimp of a man whore who when faced with a difficult situation would probably run like you were trying to beat Usain fecking Bolt in the 100 metres.
Then why please tell me why you are the one who has stolen my rather cold heart that normally will only be broken by a hardened warrior. The answer is i havent got the flaming foggiest.Might be your heritage i mean since when have they been to war or created a hardend band of warriors i cant even remember a history lesson on it to be honest.
Maybe its because they say absence makes the heart grow fonder but since you've rocked back up ive seen you how many times. Ive spoken to properly only once but that was after you seemed to ring me up in a panic thinking that something was obviously wrong NO i was bored so i rung you and other people so it wasnt just you there was no need to think that you were so superior to the rest of my feeble contacts list.
Man you actually make me feel quite sick you text me and demand to know whether i actually love you or not then ignore me for a while then you say we've got to sort this out face to face (nice to see you wanting to be mature for a change) then just leave me hanging. Yes i do want to sort this out but im not taking control of the situation you made the suggestion sort it out.
Maybe you just need to man up and take control yourself the ball is in your court now.
With the truck load of information i got this afternoon on you i dont know why im even going through all this pain but no pain no gain right?
Oh and if you see me before you read this not that you ever will (hopefully) the only reason im wearing your necklace is because I want to also because i needed something sparkly to wear with my outfit and i havent actually be arsed to change it and also i wanted a change to the whole bar and dog tag combo so now i have the sparkly circle and dog tag combo and you know what im rocking this shizzelle and until i want to change it no matter what you say will actually make me.
Perhaps i should break one of my own blogging rules and name and shame you but no thats not the type of person i am and plus everyone will probably get who you are even without your name.
So now i think that while i try and get over you i will go on a hunt for a swedish (whole or half i havent decided) soldier descended from vikings but that search may take a while or maybe just someone who will treat me better than you did.

Much Love
StephanieJade
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The worlds outside my windows...

I dont like one of them one bit.

For all my life i have dreamt of being Hodges from CSI: & Abbey from NCIS. After a week in a toxicology lab never gonna happen.
Yes its one of the best in the land as they do things from forces and labs around the country they even did the tox work for Alexander McQueen. Yes they're lovely people who love their work but now I just cant bring myself to join in. Maybe had I been allowed to join in and not just label god damn fucking tubes this post could have all been different. And because they have welcomed me they get doughnuts.
But no its the other window I want to look out of now the one where im surrounded by the past history is my first love and probably always will be.
So this is the window I hope to be looking out of soon.

Much Love
StephanieJade;
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Mediocre Minds.

Ive decided that over the next few days I'll post one of the inspirational photo-quotes that I found and my opinion on what they say.

So Here it goes:

This is very very true for example people still don't believe that Darwin is right and we evolved through natural selection and the survival of the fittest. And no believed people like Galen to start with and only once the church said he was right he was deemed correct. A more recent example would be Greece there were riots in the streets cos they were told to cut back financialy to stop the country from going down the pan.
All would be needed was for this to be explained in both detail and the general gist of things for the general public. So there really isn't any need for violence over an idea all is needed is discussion and explanation which would educate the uneducated in that field and allow for the idea to be developed.
Much Love
StephanieJade
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Fuck It & Suck It

Whoah there not like that cos this time its different I know I can be a whore but now what with me thinking which in itself is a terribly bad idea I only have a year left with these people and as I can no longer do anything good in there eyes two sets of phrases crossed my revision soaked brain. Fuck It & Suck It hence the title.

I saw this on a friends blog and thought 'tis a rather smashing idea' so i nabbed it please don't flame me because hers is alot better than mine.
So heres what ima planning on doing(hopefully if when i get to see the Alejandro premiere):

• Revise cos at the moment I sure as hell need to if this plan is go correctly.
• Actually pick what I'm going to do at university cos its all down to the flip of coin ladies and gentlemen.
• Party after my exams are over roll on Friday sunshine.
• Drink maybe more moderately and actually go with what i want and not with what everyone else is having after all I am meant to be and individual.
• Not Dress Up I mean come on if its just a get together why go to all that trouble hoodies and flip flops from now on thats the best your gonna get.
• Read more cos I feel as if ima slacking a little I haven't read a book properly since September and for me that's bad form serious bad form
• Sunbathe I know I have a tan but I want this one to last like my old one did and that is going to take alott of hours maybe i can catch up on shiz
• See my friends even though it feels as if I'm alone going through this crazy game of marbles people call life I'm not I have a cluster of people that are there for me when ever I need them my friends. *Spelling tip keep -end at the end of friend because we all know true friendships never end.*
• Miss people when my husband goes across the pond for ten weeks I'm going to miss her so much it will be quite unbelievable.
• Get my stories either up on here or wherever cos I need them to be out there as like Tinkerbell & Rachel Berry I need applause and praise to live. And plus my love for metaphorical symbolism is huge (sorry just had to see if i could get it in a sentence this week)
• Get something that at least resembles a form of relationship stability.

And Finally

• Possibly find something else to blog about because I'm finding this angle of my therapy is wearing my already fragile state rather thin.

Much Love

StephanieJade

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So Bite Me

Ok so i know that what i did was wrong but what makes me even more angry at you is that you wont even yell at me which is want and i know sorry wont even cut it cos i know your pain ive been there myself and im sure its so much worse for you cos you were actually in a proper full blown relationship that now me and my stupid fucking drunk body has gone and well and truly ruined for you and all i want is for you to be angry so that you can get it all out of your system cos bottling it all up can only lead to one thing DISASTER. Maybe what we need is a good old-fashioned cat fight but i dont think that would go down very well for us and our futures cos im sure that will a fighting thing on our records you wont get to be a teacher and i know that you cant be a lawyer with any type of record. All im saying is do whatever you want thats gonna make you feel happy again.

You dont ever have to trust me again cos i know how much you love him and if im honest i actually see this making you stronger than destroying you cos he loves you aswell and he will do anything for you.
So once again im sorry for making an enemy out of you and for permanently wrecking your trust in men.
StephanieJade
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