Ohhhh Dearrr

Jeebus i feel like a whore and only you could make me feel like that. I HATE HOW WE DO THIS.
You do realise that this now makes it a catasphrophe.
I know wont be able to be there in the same way again even earlier i was so ashamed and only you make me feel this way.I even saw her today ableit through a window and half a dining room but yet cos of this i still ducked and hid behind two juice cartons how flaming douchy is that.
And as per usual you made me loose my nose stud so i had to spend the evening with my earing in my nose if this forms into a tradition for us you may aswell just provide with a bunch and bring one with you whenever you feel as if this may occour.
I know im am not entirely blameless in this debacle far from it but i feel maybe you could have stopped this before it went way way way to far by saying just one word NO.
Maybe your right maybe when you said that we look for each other when our love lifes fuck up but how is your love life fucked up your the one with the stable girlfriend with whom your homeymoon period is coming to an end but unlike me you'll sail through all the hard times cos you'll just agree with her demands and not stand up for yourself and if i was at the end of mine thats it it'll all be over cos i'd stand up for what i want and i'll make damn sure my demands were met or at least flaming negotiated. Wheras mine well this blog is a testemant to how shit that department of my life is. Arrrggghhhhh we'll never be ross & rachel cos they sorted themselves out in the end yet our way of sorting it out and talking about it is 'it meant nothing we'll forget about it yer.?' and plus the roles are reversed for our situation ima the geeky clever one with a complete lack of social skills and your the one who while not the dictonary definition of hot but you are as thick as two short planks of wood. But tbh i want to be the mix of ross and rachel without you as i'd rather be playing this alcohol induced game of cat and mouse with someone else.
Because in the fine words of Rev Run ''Being alone is ok as long as your not lonely''

Much Love
StephanieJade
xx