Ohhhh Dearrr

Jeebus i feel like a whore and only you could make me feel like that. I HATE HOW WE DO THIS.
You do realise that this now makes it a catasphrophe.
I know wont be able to be there in the same way again even earlier i was so ashamed and only you make me feel this way.I even saw her today ableit through a window and half a dining room but yet cos of this i still ducked and hid behind two juice cartons how flaming douchy is that.
And as per usual you made me loose my nose stud so i had to spend the evening with my earing in my nose if this forms into a tradition for us you may aswell just provide with a bunch and bring one with you whenever you feel as if this may occour.
I know im am not entirely blameless in this debacle far from it but i feel maybe you could have stopped this before it went way way way to far by saying just one word NO.
Maybe your right maybe when you said that we look for each other when our love lifes fuck up but how is your love life fucked up your the one with the stable girlfriend with whom your homeymoon period is coming to an end but unlike me you'll sail through all the hard times cos you'll just agree with her demands and not stand up for yourself and if i was at the end of mine thats it it'll all be over cos i'd stand up for what i want and i'll make damn sure my demands were met or at least flaming negotiated. Wheras mine well this blog is a testemant to how shit that department of my life is. Arrrggghhhhh we'll never be ross & rachel cos they sorted themselves out in the end yet our way of sorting it out and talking about it is 'it meant nothing we'll forget about it yer.?' and plus the roles are reversed for our situation ima the geeky clever one with a complete lack of social skills and your the one who while not the dictonary definition of hot but you are as thick as two short planks of wood. But tbh i want to be the mix of ross and rachel without you as i'd rather be playing this alcohol induced game of cat and mouse with someone else.
Because in the fine words of Rev Run ''Being alone is ok as long as your not lonely''

Much Love
StephanieJade
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Arghh

Ok so this is not the time i wanted this to happen i really did not want this to happen not now.
I have serious serious exams coming up that affect the rest oh my god damn life. All i wanted was to have this after all of them are over. I have chickenpox of which apparently in the age of where you get it at like pre-puberty im flaming geriatric. But hey gives me more revision time right maybe not cos all i have the attention span to do is really not alot example i watched the wizard of oz then when my parents were talking to me and my dad was like so what did you guys do today well we watched the wizard of oz well actually i watched it she didnt have the concentration span and she fell asleep but she still managed to hide behind a cushion. oh dear what is my life coming to.


Ahhh well anyways on a lighter note my team have just gone and done the double in the first time in the clubs history the premier league title and now the fa cup maybe it would have been good if we'd gone and done the champions league but we have like a month till the world cup and we have a chance i feel as there are extreme correlations with now and '66.Club&Country part of being human.
♥My Club&Country ♥Chelsea&England.

Much Love

StephanieJade

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I dont know how much more of this I can take.

if im truly honest with you people. First i get completly and utterly thrown out of someones life like what we had wasnt even worth saying it to my face then i just get rejected which i could deal with. But now this, this doesnt make anysense at all when i was just get used to my lonely nun type exsitence you come up and throw this at me. Why do you boys all have to be the same i mean yer i can be a total slob around you and you would still love me and you say im the only girl who loves/loved you for who you are and im the only girl who you can really be yourself around. Whats wrong with the young male population arent they brought up to know that women arent there to be jerked around or play with they are there for you to spend the rest of your life with. And hes telling me all while he is stone cold sober which makes no sense to my tired whurring brain i mean i could soooo totally deal with this if it was a drunk converstaion as they say drunk minds speak sober hearts but nope he couldnt even do that right. Also to top it right off he has a girlfriend who i know quite well and it will all end in tears dearies i know because everytime were together it does.


Any way just to say im spreading my creative wings so to speak ive started riting a one-shot story loosely based on true blood should be good.
Much Love
StephanieJade
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Wedding Day Belles.

Dont they look lovely
Just thought i should let the world know that my uncle has finally made a honest woman of Sasha and his speech was lovely if a little sickening(though that may have been the chocolate cake and ice cream)

'This is the second happiest day of my life after of course the day Lay was born which also involved Sasha which i spose isnt suprising nor unusual'
Much Love
StephanieJade
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