Love and Hate are what makes the world say Damn.

I'd choose this over Spanish any day.

OK so I went to an absolutely awesome shindig even though I got so drunk I had to take a nap because I started to hyperventilate.

I ended up falling asleep watching Aladdin with three of my mates one who happens to be my ex boyfriend, turns out the not so current boyfriend seems to think that we've managed to sleep with each other (dude there were other people in the room!) and started crying like a fucking little girl.

He actually needs to man up fucking grow a pair and stop being so god damn fucking emotional about everything. He also needs to stop getting so jealous (not one of your best qualities hun) over the fact that I now have an entirely new life now I've moved away from everything and that its wrong that I have new friends that are different from the kind of people and the kind of life he's used to. Maybe this shit is karma because it always involves me and do you know what it felt good to have the kind of power i had over you then and the power to do what I want for a change.

Plus you get all pissy over the fact that i had a legitimate reason to tell you to go away then you go and say that its only OK for me to be hugging another guy because he happens to be gay, I'm sorry babe but discrimination isn't sexy at all. Also just because you're older doesn't mean you know everything and you know how to deal with every fucking situation people are stuck in because son you really really don't none of us do.

OK maybe some shit happened but you are acting far to bloody arseholeish to realise that maybe you should take just a smidgen of the blame for this and that if you had made more of an effort this wouldn't have happened? Also don't you get that me being like an emotional yo-yo be a prime opourtunity to make this effort?

So yer I'm not upset because you showed who you really are and I don't like it.

And then love there is you.

As Always

Much Love

StephanieJade

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You may have noticed

A slight change.

Well first off the name's changed.

Its cos I live in an ASkars bubble if you dont know who he is then your missing out on the most beautiful man in the world.

Ive also realised that I NEVER needed to change to get some stablility in my life even though having it scares me somewhat.

Also True Blood updates for all you lot (who actually care):

• Season 3 comes on to FX (Sky 164) in January 2011
• Book 11 - Dead Reckoning- is out sometime in May 2011
• Season 4 starts in June 2011 (In the USA but for all you naughty people who watch it online like me :) )

As Always

Much Love

StephanieJade

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Ahh Russia.

Why must you ruin my life so.
You're taking it over seriously.
Even Amazon goes would you like more books on how everyone hated on you in the 80's.
Well tbh I really don't I'm a bit sick of you really.
However you get me out of my ASkars bubble and for that you must be commended.

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Cork, you silly Cockney cunt

"What really moves me about the rugby is when they sing Swing Low Sweet Chariot.35,000 middle class white men singing a black slave song. However they used to sing Dire Straits songs so its swings and round abouts really." - Lee Mack.

As Always
Much Love
StephanieJade
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Oh well, the Devil makes us sin.

Well to be honest this is a load of fucking absolute bollocks and bloody god damn annoying.
I hate it I hate it I hate how it just fucks everything up entirely.


Fuck Fuckady Fuck Fuck Fuck.
Difficult Difficult Lemon Difficult.


Ok so maybe I should calm down but I cant calm down when this is all going on how do you expect me to?

I'm so so so sorry I really really sorry I mean I do like you but to be honest with you my dear I don't think it would work.


Then theres you what the absolute fuck am I gonna do with you I really don't know what I want from you cos I don't know what I want in general so how am I gonna know what I want from you?

And there is that still at the back of my head knawing at whatever is actually inside my skull I mean how long does that stuff stay in there? This is another Lemon Difficult moment

Phew that got a fuck load of ze old chest :)
As Always
Much Love
StephanieJade
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A message from the past with echoes from the future.

That is all she wanted you to do seriously. But dont worry about it poppet you cant have it all.
I mean with her blue nails brown eyeliner and fucked up eyes shes not the greatest looking whore in the world but thats how you made her feel like a dirty little whore that you could fuck over with someone that she trusted. So bitch shes now a stronger woman without her and shes gonna watch from the bench you sidelined her too and watch you do it all over again. And she thinks you know what have fun with that.

Much love
Stephaniejade
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Am i detecting a slight bit of compasion and longing?

First of the bat is the mention of the one the only Mr Liam Walsh. (there you go sugar) as its Hammond-FUCKING-Northman.


Right so the first time we talk in ages and one of the things you want to know is how my love life is well love that's a bit of a curve ball.
Then y'all really nice and polite talking about how your quite upset (lol didn't think that word was in your vocab guide) that you wouldn't be able to see me during your quick weekend shame that really.
If you think that's gonna endear you to me then sugar you have another thing coming.
Cos i think that I'm finally over what ever the fuck we had way back in what seems like another life. So just go back to being who you was before an annoying slightly cute prat where compassion and longing aren't in your repertoire.KThnx


Also can i just say Liam is GAY!! Were are not going out you thick skulled nincompoop just cos were close doesn't mean we are together and just for the record I'M NOT GOING OUT WITH LUKE either. Arghhh its like come on really neither of those relationships would work cos no matter what i did i couldn't swing Liam back towards my side of the fence and Luke is just too much like someone else so merrr.

As Always
Much Love
StephanieJade
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